Fire Life


By Michael Morse

She is twenty-something years old and waiting on the sidewalk, beautiful girl, long dark hair down to her waist, pretty eyes, and a giant smile. We look at each other, trying to figure out if we know one another, and if so, how.

“She’s in here,” she says after a moment and leads us inside. The house on Daboll Street has seen better days: The paint is peeling, railing loose, some cracks in the foundation, but clean and comfortable. We walk up a narrow, freshly swept stairway to the third floor where “Mami” sits in a kitchen chair looking at us as we approach. “She had dialysis this morning but doesn’t feel good; she’s dizzy and has been throwing up.”

Mami looks terrible. She’s 65 and tired. Kidney failure is simply awful, the Dialysis Center is a difficult place to spend three hours a day, three days a week, getting “dialysized.” The young girl has all of her grandmother’s medications ready and gives a concise history in perfect English. We get the chair ready, lift Mami into it, and lift her up and carry her down. It’s been a long shift, and the stairs seem endless. I’m walking backward, one step at a time, the walls holding me upright as we descend. I’m thankful for the cleanliness; some walls in the places we go are alive with bugs and other things.

We start some oxygen and attempt an IV, test her blood glucose, and run an EKG while the granddaughter watches. She is fascinated by the way we work and asks a lot of questions. A light goes off in my head.


“It is you!” she looks delighted.

“Your hair grew.”

“It’s been a long time.”

She grins, I grin, everybody grins, even Mami, but she has no idea why.

In 1993, I spent six weeks reading Dr. Seuss books to an ESL (English as a Second Language) kindergarten class in one of the toughest schools in the city. It was a program designed to get police and firefighters into the city schools to be role models. We were supposed to follow a set course, starting with The Cat in the Hat, Green Eggs and Ham, and some others. I never understood those books when I was little. I still don’t.

I loved those kids; the teachers, not so much. It was pandemonium after the first week, once we got comfortable. I wanted to make a good impression so I wore my dress blues to class, and I think I scared them at first, until they got over the fancy suit and realized they had a marshmallow on their hands. I would read a page or two of the good doctor; figured if I thought the stories were stupid, the kids who barely spoke English must hate them too; then let the hour descend into chaos as we told stories and drew pictures and goofed around.

I was not invited back but made some great little friends. I would see the kids, about 15 of them, from time to time over the next few years while on calls to their schools or homes or even on the streets. Every now and then, I’d be doing something on a rescue run and some little creep would appear out of nowhere and give me a hug. Of all of the things I’ve done while on the job, that experience proved to be the most rewarding. Eventually the kids got older and I stopped seeing them, and time progressed and they grew up and moved or disappeared. I hadn’t seen any of them in years.

“I still don’t like Dr. Seuss,” Yolanda says as we get out of the rescue and wheel her grandmother in.

“Me neither.”

“The Grinch is pretty cool though.”

“I love the Grinch!”

She’s too old to hug now, too much time has passed, but that smile of hers will stay with me forever.


Michael Morse recently retired from his position as captain, Rescue Co. 5, with the Providence (RI) Fire Department after 23 years. He lives a few miles from his old station with his wife, Cheryl, a couple of Maine Coon cats and their dog, Mr. Wilson. He writes about his experiences as a firefighter/EMT in his books, Rescuing Providence and Responding, and contributes articles to many fire/EMS-related publications.